Here's my little cutie... her name is Q-Tip, wierd name I know, but she actually is a q-tip, she cleans her mom and brother's ears daily. ewwwww...
bev and me... just chilling after we curled our hair with the difuser... best invention ever. we were getting all dolled up for a bridal shower... oh what fun it is to be high on hairspray!!
me and my boytoy... or toyboy depends who you talk to. i quite like him!!!
oh you did not just say that... lol, apparently i have looks that could kill... apparently it's true.
he's actually smiling... i can't believe it.... love ya jay!

Well... I went home again. Just for the weekend this time... It was fun, the whole family was home. All of my brothers even. so that was awesome. Just like olden days!! Well... if you know my family at all, you will know we are crazy, so we decided that we needed a trophy wall... well, since it's not hunting season, we improvised!!

He has a deer in the headlights one too... which is funny, and i might put it in my blog later...
here's a drunk deer look... yikes, it was either this one or one of me laughing histarically
and here's an even drunker deer... wouldn't want to hit that one
this one even has ears... oh my brothers!!
boy's will be boys... always wrestling, seeing who can beat the others... little joshy is getting pretty big though. and dj is starting to put a little weight back on his skelaton... but steve still has most of the training behind him... it's pretty close between the three of them, but then there's me, all talk, and pen stabbing, lol... sorry dj, guess butter knives and pens really do puncture the surface... ouch!!

Well, there's a little glimpse into my trip home and my family. Hope you enjoyed!

Too many people take their families for granted... i only wish i could be back home. I have lived away from my family and friends for 3 years now. it's so hard. Right now i'm working through trying to remember that i may never ever live at home again and also working on finding friends of my own. friends that have fun with me. I hate being in a city of so many people and feeling so alone besides my wonderful boyfriend... I miss all of my friends back home, and my brothers, and the fun things we used to do, and the farm, and my puppies, the way i used to be fun and crazy, and had fun all of the time. I feel like the life is being sucked out of me. Lethbridge is a town full of cold people and has a huge church that is hard to get into, it's opressing. It's also true that lately i am not the most social person. i hate trying to get to know someone, all of the ackward moments... I just don't like small talk. So partly it's my fault, but it is also in part that this whole town is a great big bunch of cliques... someday i will find my way in, i just wish that day would hurry up. All I need to do is find that one really good friend that I can be myself around, not someone i have to walk on eggshells around, or someone who I have to be overly serious around. I like making jokes, and i need to find someone who can give it AND take it...

I miss home. I miss my friends. I miss my freedom on the farm. I miss my puppies. I miss my mom. I miss my dad. I miss DJ. I miss Josh. I miss being the CO-OP cashier whom everyone loved and came to visit and went out of their way to say hi. I hate when no one smiles back. I hate when people look at me like a raging idiot when I say hi to them. I hate when people criticize my hometown. I hate when people criticize Saskatchewan. I hate when people put down my family. And I hate people who think they know everything about everything. (I'm not putting lethbridge, or alberta down. I'm just homesick and frustrated.) and when i say hate, i don't mean hate, i mean strongly dislike...

So... this is the end of my blog, but I encourage you to enjoy your family, life ends too quick. I encourage you, especially if you live at home, to make sure you cherish every moment you have there, because things change, and a lot of the time they will never go back.

And... another thing to think about, is that when you are pessemistic, it make's other peoples lives greyer. While I don't think you should pretend your life is all sun, puppies, and daisies... sometimes you should just try to be positive... put a smile on...

jason always sings the song to me about how a smile goes a long long ways, and it's true. Through my tough times in this town, that has taken me a long long way. So SMILE! and make someones day by smiling at them, or smiling back at them, or saying HI